Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Feeling Butterflies

How funny that I should get the jitters about leaving work now that I’m less than 12 hours away from my exit interview. For months I’ve been looking forward to this day and now that it’s here, I am suddenly terrified! Well, not terrified, it’s more like a weird combination of fear and elation. Kind of like when I found out I was PG. I think it has something to do with the fact that I'll be technically unemployed for the first time since I graduated high school. This is the first time I'll be without a set schedule for the week. No more waking up at 5:00 am, hurrying to get myself and Little Man ready and in the car by 6:30. No more fighting the early morning rush to work and then the evening rush back home. No more dealing with bosses that don't value you beyond being a mechanism for attaining their goals. I won't ever again have to bite my tongue while said boss takes credit for my hard work. It's very liberating to know that I'll now set my own schedule, that I'm accountable only to myself and that everything I accomplish from here on out will be for the benefit of my family and not to appease the corporate powers that be.

As I was carrying my box of personal items down to my car, the couple of people I passed in the hallway looked really sad and said they were going to miss me. Truthfully, I'll miss some of them too. It’s nice to know that I made some kind of impact. I’m sure I’ll see some of them again in the future; my mom will continue to work in the building until November and I’ll be bringing Little Man by to see her once in a while and go out to lunch or something. Those of us leaving tomorrow even got a farewell pizza party and goodbye cards. Awwww!

I'm a lot more sad about saying goodbye to the daycare than I ever thought I could be. Not so much because I liked the idea of him being there, but because the people are so nice and they've taken such good care of my Little Man since he was 4 months old. I've become really good friends with his "teacher" and call her often just to chat. She even babysits him occasionally. I'll miss the other babies too, I spend a good chunk of my day with those munchkins and not seeing them all the time is pretty sad for me. I'm sure Little Man will miss his friends too, so we need to find a Mommy-and-Me group in the area ASAP!


Rsgrl said...

Congrats on finally getting to be a SAHM! You've worked really hard to get to this point and you should be very proud of yourself. I wish you all the best.

Carly said...

congrats on being freeee!!!!