It was so great!

We got to my mom's house for Thanksgiving at 8:30 in the morning. I don't know how I did it, but I managed to keep my mouth shut till right before we ate dinner (luckily, we ate at 3!). I spent the morning running around "documenting the day", so no one thought it was weird when I asked everyone to gather around the food so I could take a picture. Their reaction was so funny! They repeated what I said without realizing what it meant at first. It took them a bit before they reacted. Hilarious : )

Mom hugged the bloat, but it wasn't too weird and the rest of the family gave us hugs. Everyone was really happy and baby's health and safety was added to the Thanksgiving prayer. We told my brother and SIL over the phone, and we're waiting for DH's parents to come over in a couple of days to tell them in person. I think I might tape that one as well (though, I never take pics of them, so it might spark suspicion... we'll see). We're waiting to tell everyone else until Christmas. I'm really hoping that mom and grandma can keep it to themselves until then : )

OMG I'm so nervous!

I can't believe we're telling everyone tomorrow! It seems like just yesterday we got the BFP! I decided that instead of taking a picture of the reactions, I'm going to video tape it. My digital camera has a nifty little feature that allows up to 20 minutes of film. I'll be running around all morning "capturing the day" for my little sister (wink wink) who is in Boot Camp. She's been requesting pics anyway, perfect excuse right? So I'll gather everyone together for a group shot (only I'll really be filming) and tell them to say "Jen's pregnant!" on the count of three. I'm all giddy just thinking about it! Come on tomorrow! Hurry up and get here : )

Houston, we have a heartbeat!

DH and I went in for our second ultrasound this morning and got to see The Kid waving at us and his/her heart flickering away at 167BPM. The tech said that everything looked really good and even that I'm measuring three days ahead. He said since it was so close, though, that they would leave my EDD at July 2nd.

See the little arm? S/he was waving at us ; )

After the u/s, I left DH in the waiting room and went back for my first exam. I so hate these! The doc came in... followed by three other people! He asked me if I would mind another doctor doing the exam; nope, no problem. Then he asked if it would be ok to have a new doc (an intern?) in the room to observe. I understand the importance of a teaching practice, but it was too many people for me, I was feeling a little overwhelmed. I told him no. The intern didn't seem to mind, he just turned around and left. I felt kind of bad after, but I figure that I needed to be as comfortable as possible in an uncomfortable situation. Maybe next time. Sorry dude!

All in all, a great appointment. And now that we've seen the heartbeat, I know I will feel much better about telling the Fam at Thanksgiving on Thursday.

8 weeks!

A full week past my latest m/c date! I am so beyond ecstatic about this, I caught myself humming in the shower and I'm smiling like a big 'ol goof ball : )

Symptoms:

The boobage has calmed down. They don't hurt nearly as much now as they did in weeks 5 and 6. I can sleep on my stomach now! Yay! The cramping is still around; it comes and goes. I did have a couple rounds of Lightning Ute over the past few days, man, does that hurt! Glad it only lasts a couple of seconds. One that hit me last night had me totally paralyzed for a bit, I was too afraid to move and make the pain worse. The nausea I complained of yesterday is still here in force. I went out and bought some Ginger Ale last night, so hopefully that helps! I've also been super bloated, I swear it looks like I'm a lot further along than I actually am, people are starting to give me the side eye. You know that look people get when they think they know something and they're just dying to ask you about it? Yeah, I'm getting that one a lot. I try to suck in the bloat as much as possible but it hurts to do that! I get this weird stabby feeling on each side of my abdomen and it feels really tight. A couple of girls answered my inquiry on 1st Tri and said they've each had that too, so I'm chalking it up to pregnancy weirdness and not something I should be worrying about. The "spotting" from last week has not come back! Yay!

I guess that's it. 3 days, 22 hours, and 46 minutes till our next appt. where the doc will do a more comprehensive u/s. I cannot wait to see our little one again : )

Here are the latest belly pics. I dunno why I look irritated in all of them, I really was a happy camper this morning. I'm sucking in most of the bloat, and not succeeding very well... maybe that's why I look funny...LOL

Puke Purgatory

I'm at that point now where I wish I would just puke and get it over with. I'm nauseated all.day.long! From the time I get out of bed in the morning, till the time I drift off to dream land at night, I am on the verge of puking my guts out. But nothing happens, I don't puke, but I don't feel normal; I have no relief : (

This is not me complaining BTW. It's more of a curious observation. I've read that you should eat small meals and snack throughout the day to stave off the nausea. I've been doing that with no success, it's the same no matter what I do. I did find some measure of relief yesterday when I drank a Sierra Mist. I'm not very excited about drinking soda instead of water, but if it helps I may go out and buy a case of the stuff!

We get to see the little one again on Monday! I can't wait! I'm taking the whole day off of work so that I don't have to rush back. Pray for a strong heartbeat! AND I'm going on Saturday to see the Twilight movie with LittleBlue! It's shaping up to be an awesome couple of days! DH was so happy when I let him off the hook for that one, he really didn't want to go. "Tell her I said THANK YOU!!!" were his exact words. LOL

First Milestone Reached

I'm 7 weeks pregnant today.

We lost our SweetPea at 7 weeks, so this is kind of a big deal for me. I wanted to feel happy to reach this day, but last night I had some very light spotting. At least, I think it was spotting. It wasn't really brown, more tan-ish? I don't know for sure what it was, which means that I don't know if I should be worried or not. I guess I'll just have to keep an eye on it and pray it doesn't turn into anything bad.

I'm hoping the increasing nausea is a sign that all is ok. I had to lay back down this morning after popping out of bed, oh the wave that hit me! I'm also needing to go to bed earlier and earlier. I used to stay up till all wee hours of the morning, my usual bedtime being 11:30 or 12:00, depending on what was on TV. Last night, I went to bed at 10:45. I just couldn't hack it. DH stayed up longer so it gave me a chance to fall asleep before he came in and started snoring in my ear! Even with the extra sleep, I am still exhausted and the circles under my eyes are becoming harder to hide. People are starting to ask me if I'm feeling alright.

Here are the 7 week belly pics. The bloat has gone down a little : )

1st Ultrasound!

OMG I was so excited I couldn't even sleep last night! Well, it wasn't so much the excitement that kept me awake as it was the Heavy Construction Equipment Parade going on outside our house! Stupid people, why the hell would they think it's a great idea to make that much noise at 3 o'clock in the morning!? Ugh!

Anyway, we got to the doctor's office a bit early to fill out a mountain of paperwork. Then, my doctor was running late; he was finishing up a c-section at the hospital down the street (he was telling us that he delivered 20 babies over the weekend! Wow!) His assistant did a quick ultrasound to show us the little bean, but couldn't really tell us much. She couldn't give us accurate measurement or anything so they're not even sure if the dates are correct. There wasn't a heartbeat, but neither the doc or his assistant seemed really concerned about it, he said it was probably just too early to see it. I have another appointment in two weeks where they'll do the dating and check the heartbeat. I can't wait for 11/24 to get here!!

When the doctor was done talking to us, he sent me down the hall to get blood drawn. Five HUGE vials later, I was running out the door. I hate giving blood. No, not blood, I hate needles! I couldn't even look when she was taking it, I was staring at the ceiling and biting my thumb to distract myself from the pricking. DH watched... he's so morbid ; )

So far so good. Keep sticking little one!

6 weeks!

I'm still feeling good. The cramping comes and goes, it's not too bad most of the time, but there is an occasional twinge that'll make me suck air in through my teeth. Those are few and far between, so I'm sure they're really nothing. The boobs are doing weird things. They're not bigger yet, which I'm actually annoyed with! I have little A cups and I want bigger boobs for once! Pregnancy is probably the only way I'll accomplish that, I don't think I'd be down for surgical intervention. I noticed a couple of very prominent veins on the sides and I have weird little bumps around one of my nips. I'll definitely have to ask the doctor about that. I've had some nausea, but it usually comes on at night. The day time has been very manageable, probably because I'm able to snack all day. I don't know how to account for the thirst. It seems that I can't get enough water, I always have a glass or bottle next to my hand. Combine that with the frequent pee trips and my days are super fun! My first doctor's appointment is on Monday! I called yesterday to make sure they would be doing an ultrasound. They are! I'm so excited! DH even managed to get the morning off to come with me.

I don't think it's hit him yet, he's still acting like nothing out of the ordinary is going on. I tell him I'm tired and want to go to sleep at 8 o'clock and he looks at me like I'm an alien. Hey! It's hard work to grow a person from scratch! I'm freakin' exhausted!

Obviously, not much has changed since last week... well, belly-wise anyway. It's still all bloat, but I think I could totally pass for 5-6 MONTHS PG and not 6 weeks. That is, uness I suck it in!

These pics are more for AWing my new haircut than to show the belly. Enjoy!

Whispering to myself

"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to me. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!"

"My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."

So much sadness on 1st Tri today; I've been going over and over these in my head all day. I've only known about this little one for about two weeks, and I'm really trying to stay away from negative thoughts, but it's so hard! I'm freaking myself out, I've even taken to using panty liners so I can tell right away if there is any spotting (none so far, thank God). I'm getting so anxious for Monday's appt.

Lightning Boob

and lightning ute, and lightning crotch. I got em. Sometimes all at once! It hurts. I never had any of that before; I'll take it though, along with the nausea, if it means that the little bean is doing well. Seven days till my first appt. I don't know if they'll be doing an u/s then, I'm going to have to call and find out. With a history of m/c, this 'not knowing' thing has the potential to drive me slowly insane. I think I'll probably end up getting an at home doppler after 10 weeks so I can reassure myself without having to pay out of pocket for a doctor's visit. This is also about the time I started spotting with the last one. I get anxious every time I go to the bathroom, but haven't seen anything scary so far! Stay put BabyLovf!!