Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Our first class

After work yesterday, I had to race home so that I could let my puppies out of their kennels for a while. I felt so bad that they'd been cooped up all day long and then had to go right back in a half hour after I let them out. I had to keep telling myself that it's only one night a week for the next 8 weeks, they'll be OK. Didn't help, I still feel really guilty. The class didn't start till 7:30, but because it's kind of far away, DH wanted to leave at 6:30 so we wouldn't be late; he insisted that being late for the first day of class would not be good. He's so cute. We got there with plenty of time and ended up waiting outside in the truck for about 20 minutes.

The night was full of surprises. First, both of our instructors are blind! Not saying that's a bad thing, and I know it shouldn't matter, but it definitely caught us off guard. A little heads up would've been nice. I'm sure I came off as a complete ass when I stammered my introduction. Next, we were only one of two couples in attendance, which I'm kind of ambivalent about. On one hand, I like that the group is a little more intimate, but at the same time, I like to be able to blend into the crowd when I feel uncomfortable. Can't do that here! And the final, and most embarrassing surprise came when I realized that I didn't have my checkbook with me! I still can't believe it. I left it in my other purse (I change purses a lot). OMG, did I go beet red! I felt like that guy who realizes he forgot his wallet on a first date. Luckily, she said I could bring it to the next class. Honestly though, I'm not sure if we'll even be able to keep up with the classes. We just finished our taxes and ended up owing a nice little chunk of change. Now I'm thinking that this expense isn't as justifiable as I'd originally thought. I'm wondering if it would be enough for me to try and train DH myself out of the books I bought. Everything she's talked about so far I've read in the books and already told DH about. Will this be more like a refresher (which we don't need) or will we still be getting good information?

The class itself was OK, although the instructor came off as the type of person that will talk your ear off about something she believes in and bash you over the head with "facts" until you come around to her way of thinking. That vibe came off in the beginning when she claimed that u/s techs are wrong about the sex of the baby 50% of the time...? I know some can be wrong (too early to really tell, or the tech doesn't get a good view) but 50% of the time? She also didn't have very nice things to say about ultrasounds in general. I don't mind "crunchy" people for the most part, it's the fanatics that bother me. And after listening to her for an hour and a half, I'm afraid that she just might fall into that category. I like to research and make up my own mind about something, so I dunno, I'm going to have to think on this some more.

So ultimately, I'm torn. I'm fairly confident that I'd be able to guide DH in what I need from him come labor time, and I'm sure he'd do great, but at the same time... WTH do I really know!? Ugh, I hate that feeling of not knowing what to do. Do we keep up with the class, even though we kind of can't afford it and might actually end up being something neither of us enjoy participating in? I think a discussion with DH is most definitely in order here. Any insight from my wonderful readers would be great too!


Shell said...

I'm not sure I would be confident enough to do it all on my own, but I would recommend maybe finding someone else?? I'm going to be a bradley girl too but I also hate the "beat me over the head with fact until you agree with me" thing. Or I hear they have online classes. Have you looked into that? Best of luck!