Saturday, May 11, 2013

Alright then, be weird!

You don't have to come out of lurkdom, but know that I'm going to assume that you're weirdos. So I'm glad I scrubbed the blog before I started posting again.

Now I'm going to pretend that you're not here because I have some stuff to write about.

When we first started the journey for #2 (you know, 22 days ago), I had a mini scare with DH. A couple days after yanking my IUD I told him that I had bought some prenatals and asked him if he was excited to finally be trying again. He said "it is what it is". I was thrown for a bit of a loop because we had been talking about it for a while and after waiting two years longer than I really wanted to, I was SUPER excited. I guess I figured he would be too. Of course, me being me, I got all in my own head and started thinking the worst.

"Are we not on the same page?"

"Did I pull the goalie too soon? It's not like I can just put it back in!"

"OMG, am I going to have to chart to avoid now!?"

I was dreading having to talk to DH about it. No, that's wrong. I was terrified. Not because I was fearful of a fight, but because I would be heartbroken if he were to tell me that he wasn't really ready and ask me to wait even longer. I actually stewed in this craziness for almost a whole day before bringing it up to DH. He pretty much laughed at my anxiousness and let me know in no uncertain terms that he was on board. Definitely on board.

Anyway, that little story is supposed to be a segue into this next little tidbit. You creepers may not think it's important at all, but it made my heart happy and I wanted to document it.

Last night we were... doing stuff and he asked me if I was ovulating. *swoons from adorableness* I would have to go back through past posts to double check, but I'm pretty sure he never asked me that when we were trying for Little Man. I like to believe that even though he may not express it the same way (or at all *sigh*), that he is just as excited as I am. He's showing more interest in what's going on with me, but I can't talk about it too much or he tunes out. Which is why I put it all down here! I can say what I need to say and unload my brain, so to speak, and not dump everything on him.

I'm on clouds today. ♥

For the record, I'm 11DPO today and have absolutely zero intention of testing until 15DPO. I hate seeing BFNs.