Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Cue Marge-like groan

I need to get out of my own head for like a week. That would be a useful skill for every 2WW I think. Frequent pee breaks today are raising my level of anxiousness. Little Man's BFP was preceded by painful boobs at 6DPO and AF-like cramping at 12DPO and right now, my boobs don't hurt.

I'm irritated with myself. I told DH that I wanted to make TTC#2 as stress free as I could and try to not let myself get anxious like I did the first time around, but that doesn't seem to be something I am capable of doing. I told myself that I was only charting to make sure that my cycles regulate and that I'm ovulating after having the Mirena in for almost 4 years and that after I was sure everything was fine, I would stop and "let whatever happens happen." Yeah. Not so much. I don't know who I thought I was kidding. I know myself better than that and to expect myself to not go all Type A on it was not a realistic expectation.

Seven more days until either AF is expected to show her ugly face, or I'm holding a pee stick with two pink lines on it. Lord help me; I need to calm down.